Things I had to remember after giving birth for the first time

written September 2020

That it split me open but it did not
split me apart 
that I still love grey sand chilly beaches and poetry
that warm oatmeal chocolate chip cookies will help, and do
that when I was seventeen I decided I loved Alfredo sauce so my mom learned to make it and taught me and it’s one of the only things I can cook by heart 

my newborn daughter’s head and a few warm cookies